The Story of My Secondary School Life

When i was young, i used to do and say what i want without thinking of the consequences. It didn't even cross my mind that i might have offended anyone at any point of time. Life seems so simple and easy until this one incident that happened to me when i was in secondary school. I would say its actually life changing. You must be wondering what is it? What changes me so much that makes me who i m today? The story goes like this....

I was a form 3 student that time. Childish and acted like a small kiddo as always. Then, one day, during recess, i noticed everyone kept staring at me. Everyone in the whole freaking school!!! I wondered why and actually got quite scared. Suddenly, one of my friend came to me and said " Hey , there is this paper writing bad, terrible and disgusting things about you posted all over the school!" I was shocked and hope that she was lying. I did not know what to do and how to react. I became famous out of the sudden for the extremely wrong reason. The whole school including all the teachers read it. I was so scared to even leave my classroom. Its like the end of the world to me. When i was about to collapse,  i remember there was this one girl that approached me on that same day. She pat me on my shoulder and said " We know its not true, u don't have to care whats written in it. " This short sentence actually touched my heart from within. However, i'm not the usual me anymore.

Since then my whole world changed. I became extremely quiet and pessimistic. I had super low self esteem and no confidence in doing everything. My counsellor and my disciplinary teacher constantly asking me to meet them. I knew that they just wanted to help and see how i was coping. But seriously, i did not want to talk about it at all. I remained silence throughout the whole conversation most of the time.

My whole social life changed drastically as well. Thats the time i realised not everyone is a true friend. Some would leave you behind. How about my family members then?? Well, actually i did not tell any of my family members. I acted as thou nothing happen when i was at home. I know very well they would have help me out but at the same time i know my parents will make a big fuss out of it and i want to avoid that. Its my mistake that i hide this from them. I thought i was able to handle it all by myself but i was so wrong. Eventually, I developed major depressive disorder. I felt so alone and helpless. I was crying everyday in my room. I did not want to get out of my house and definitely not to school. Every time when people were talking, i would think that they were talking bad about me. When people stared at me i would think that i must have done something terribly wrong. I did not want to hang out with anyone as i'm scared that i might accidentally hurt someone's feeling. At that time, I only talk to one of my friend at school. The funny part was some people actually approached her and asked whether i said anything to her. I was so disappointed when she told me this. All they care was whether i suspected them. I pretend that i did not care but, inside me, my heart had scattered into pieces.

After about a year,  I started to open up my heart slowly. I began to hang out with people that im comfortable with. My MDD resolved slightly but not my confidence level and self esteem. I still prefer staying at home whenever i can. So, I spent most of my time studying as i have no other interest at all. I guess thats how i strike full A's in my SPM and end up in medical field today.

All i can say is everything happen for a reason. It helps us grow physically, mentally and spiritually. No one will actually understand how you feel unless you let them walk into your heart and help you. No man is an island. But please remember, not all your friend will stay by your side when you need them. Those who stay are those that actually care and love you. They are your true friends. Be there for them always as how they will for you. Don't be sad or angry towards those that left you. Be thankful that you get to know their true colours now and not later. Whenever terrible things happen to you, take it as a challenge and walk your way out of it! Never give up easily.  No matter what the outcome is, you will eventually become a better and stronger person in life.

To all my true frens... i love you all... xoxo <3 p="">

My First Filler part 2

So, hows my experience on filler?

On that day, I was extremely excited but also scared at the same time. My heart was palpitating when im finally laying down on the dental chair. I started of with my nose filler. I was first given an lignocaine injection (pain killer) at the tip of my nose and also at the bridge of my nose. For me, these 2 injections were considered the most painful injection of the whole procedure. Pain score about 6-7/10.  So, its not that bad after all. Then, all i felt was something moving up and down my nose and its done!! It takes only about 5-10mins.

The greatest moment was when i opened my eyes and looked forward, I was thrilled!!! I can see my nose bridge by just looking forward!!! no mirror needed! Amazing!

                                                                   After my nose filler

On the same setting, i did filler on my forehead. The filler was injected on my forehead from 3 diff spots. Honestly if i were given a second chance, ill not do it again cuz of THE PAIN!!!! Im not joking when i say i felt like i was banging my head towards the wall continuously. I cant endure the pain at all. Or is it that my pain threshold is low? i wonder.. But I guess the phrase " beauty is pain" is true. The stress ball on my hand was almost falling apart. Straight after the filler, my forehead was bumpy and i looked like lionhead fish. HAHA!!! The pain unfortunately lasted for few hours.. ><

After my forehead filler * a poker face due to the pain. LOL

Now, Lets see the final result... (2 weeks later)... moment of truth!

I had a sharper nose, smaller face and more rounded forehead! Im totally in love with the result. 

Never regret my decision till now !!

My Very First Filler Experience ( Part 1)

Everyone wants to be pretty regardless of age, gender and race . Of course that includes me as well. I always have the idea of getting a filler done however, i always feel that i don't really need it so why waste the money and endure the pain? Obviously thats not the case.

On the very first day i joined aesthetic, which was quite some time back, i was exposed to all the equipments and products in my clinic of course that include fillers as well. The range and brands of all the fillers is way out of my imagination. At that point, i was like " Ho** Sh*t!! i am so screwed! my boss is gonna grilled me up and down on everything about fillers.!! Why is there so many diff range?? Whats the diff??

But, lucky for me that i was treated like a HO all over again (*with the tagging period of course ). I was taught on every single types of fillers and most importantly skills. Along the way, my interest in filler is getting more and more but i still don't really think of doing it yet until one fine day i was told that " hmm.. u see, ur cheek is too flat, ur nose is not sharp enough and ur forehead is not as round as it should be and all these gives away ur age". My jaw dropped! Seriously?? do i look that bad!!! My immediate action is to look for the mirror and so there it goes.. i spend almost the whole day sitting in front of the mirror looking at myself. ><!!

Without hesitation, i did it the next day. Ellanse is my filler of choice for both my nose and forehead. The reason i choice ellanse is bcux its a collagen stimulant and its the only product in the market that guarantee that it will last a certain amount of years!! Besides, its a non HA (hyaluronic acid) product and so it will not absorb water and expand. I definitely do not want a broad nose!!!! 

Compared to radiesse, its relatively new in the market but both work quite similar. Both are non HA product and are able to give u a very define instant lift on the area treated. The reason i chose ellanse rather than radiesse is because of the longevity. Ellanse-M guarantee me a result that can last for at least 2 years while radiesse last roughly about a year. The word guarantee actually means that if the sharpness reduce within 2 years, they will give me a whole new syringe of ellanse for FREE! *wink*

So, Hows the procedure goes? Any pain? Any pain killer given? hows the result? ... Ill talk about it on my next post and also my before and after picture. So, stayed tunned.....

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